I've had a rough couple of weeks...

Knowing that God is Sovereign and just doesn't leave me much to be angry with... except myself. I'm angry that I didn't relish every second that I had with my dad and we had a great relationship. I cannot imagine losing a parent while the relationship was strained. I now have a passion to awaken students to the great gift they have been given in their parents. I'm sure there are some crummy parents in my ministry, but they are the exception, not the rule. I truly believe that my student's parents love them very much and even when they are harsh or seem oppressive they are just loving to a fault. I applaud parents and will do anything I can to help them. My hope is that through this terrible loss in my life I can help steer students around some heartache in theirs. We'll see...

I hate...

the wages of sin.

Cardboard Testimonies

Mine would be:

"Hurt deeply by the church...

called to serve a loving church!"

Yours?

A Poem I wrote for my Dad a while back...

There is a sadness in my chest
That will not go away,
My heart is aching for release
That will not come today.

And though I long to see you
I know you stand complete,
The joys you had here on the Earth
Dare not even compete.

I know this burden's mine to bear
And that your burden's gone,
It's swallowed up in victory
In Jesus Christ alone.

In Jesus I will place my trust
Though I don't understand,
So breathe now Daddy, breathe in deep
You're home in Jesus' hands

Looking toward a hard day...

as most of you know, I lost my dad in April and it is the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I long so badly to spend more time with him, to tell him things that I want to tell him, and to hug him one more time. Last Saturday was his birthday, which was hard because I had a three hour drive alone. Tomorrow is father's day and that means I have a full day of thinking about him. It's not that I do not want to think about him... just that it is so hard. I love my dad so much and would give anything to have him back.