Looking toward a hard day...

as most of you know, I lost my dad in April and it is the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I long so badly to spend more time with him, to tell him things that I want to tell him, and to hug him one more time. Last Saturday was his birthday, which was hard because I had a three hour drive alone. Tomorrow is father's day and that means I have a full day of thinking about him. It's not that I do not want to think about him... just that it is so hard. I love my dad so much and would give anything to have him back.